我怎么说 - What I Say

Isn’t this a big BULGE or what? haha…

In one of my consultation sessions with one of the clients, I noticed this guy, stood right in front of me, flaunting his “asset”.

Me, was just sat right there while he was talking to my colleague, don’t want to pass the opportunity to immortalize this moment for you to see.

Its’ an exclusive initiative that disappoints and encourages at the same time, but for the rich, who have always fantasized about owning a rare Sumatran Tiger prowling in their backyard, it’s a dream come true. Under a unique proposal, the Indonesian government would be allowing the rich to adopt this rare animal for 1 billion rupiah ($107,000). Deforestation and hunting has led to severe culling of the numbers and with just 400 big cats alive today, the government hopes that the initiative would protect these animals from near extinction. The tigers will remain state property and will be returned to the state if they were no longer wanted. Any cubs the tigers produce will be the property of the state. As the conservationists are left scorning at the strange proposal, orders have already started pouring in from the rich who in the deepest of their minds have yearned to be called the big shots; courageous and powerful as the Sumatran Tiger.
www.bornrich.org

I pity them though, the tiger I mean. Especially since I've been assigned to work in Sumatra for awhile. I can see that they do struggle to survive with all the environment-unfriendly human activities in Sumatra. Illegal logging, oil company operation, people burning forest to create space for sawit plantation.
Now they want to make them available on sale, what kind of (so-called-rich) people are they?
And considering that this is encouraged by the government... What were they thinking? *shake head*

There's a proverb in Indonesia "Dikasih Hati Minta Jantung", literally translated "I give you my liver, but still you ask for my heart". That proverb basically describes about a person that take you for granted.

I had this friend I knew from Fridae, say his name is A. Since the very first I already told him that I have been in a relationship for 2 and a half year already, and said that I'm not into man-looking-for-soulmate chase for now, let's be friends. At first it went along very well, looks like we're gonna make a good friendship (which is hard to look for in gay world, or at least for me). Sometimes we said hi and exchange stories about our day, just casual conversation.

Casual conversation, that's all for me. But not for him. Apparently he thinks that he could fit between me and my boyfriend.
"Wah, it's raining out there, so cold and cozy, I need someone to hug me, lol. But who yaaa?"
"Want me to bath with you?"
Example of the things he'd say.

And as cherry on top, our chat today...
A: Why so long ?!?! [notice the marks]
Me: Yeah, why is it a prob for ya? Even my boyfriend wun be like that, lol.
A: Ya, because he doesn't care! [How can you be so certain mistah?]
A: He lives abroad. [Errrh ya, so??]

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Me: Well well well, now who's actually hoping that, is it you or me? :p

Twice he asked me to accompany him watch movie, and I was just like ok, nothing special la. In the theatre, even I didn't give him hint or hold his hand, I literally FOLD my hand, although I knew he put his hand on the palmrest. OBVIOUS INVITATION, no? It's quite obvious on where this will go isn't it? From my experience with all the guys I've dated, the thing that you do in the theatre are good indications on how you will spend the night after. Hold hands = good! No touchy touchy = Sleep alone tonight!

And it wasn't even a date!!!
He wanted to watch, he asked me to accompany. I thought the movie was good, so I agreed to accompany. That simple! Tell me if I did wrong.

Hey man! Know your boundaries. It's not like you're my boyfriend or something.

My lao gong just sent it to me...



You think we could make an everlasting couple? Lol...

Money Money Money...

Important in our life, no?
Although one says that money can't buy love, but for me, without money you can't even live long enough to love. It's a materialistic world we live in.

This blog entry was actually inspired by my senior in workplace. He's been working here for more than 20 years already, and if you count his salary, it is enough to buy one new Honda CR-V every month. And even on certain months in a year, he could afford to buy new Honda Camry with his monthly salary.
People talk bad about him, people envy him, people just want to be like him somehow... Who wouldn't?

But in achieving that, he often disobey other people's right, he often tricks his colleague so that he could get the expensive jobs, and sometimes, while he's on vacation, he would keep monitoring the activities in the workplace, and when expensive jobs coming, he would fly right away, even in the middle of vacation, and replacing his subtitute colleague for that job.

He never, for once treat his crews, even after performed several jobs in one single day. Bring re-cooked food for banquet party. Using the same worn-out clothes for year. Buying second-hand goods for his kids. Bring airplane foods as a gift for his smallest kid.

So many bad talks about him that I've heard, so many curses and invectives that people say to him. For me, this is not the problem, and that's not how you should solve it.

Being greedy is a choice, you cannot force people not to be greed because that's your perception of good behaviour of human beings that has been planted in your mind say, since you were a small kid. That's not it. It's his choice to live his life that way, he has taken all his risks for good, so be it. He lost his time for his family, he has that stigma from other people, and many others that I cannot even mention, only he knows. He has swallowed his pills. And I bet  that would be a bitter one, probably get even more bitter in following years.

As for me, I don't want to have a regret in my live by piling money all the time in my life until I cannot even enjoy it anymore. I have my purposes, I don't mind to work hard (and smart of course) and spend my money for my family. People say " It is not the time of shopping and travelling, you should do it later once you have more money...". But the question is, when? How enough is enough?

God, Family, and Sweetheart (and Friends, heh heh). For me, that is all that counts.